Friday, 11 November 2016

I want to dance again

I want to dance again, I want to lift my arms and praise you, I want to jump and land in your arms, oh how I log to dance again, as I watch those dance before me, I remember the words spoken over me, how ill never dance, but oh how I log to dance again, to put my bailey shoes on again and fly in the air and praise you, oh I want to dance again, I want to lift my arms and praise you, I want to jump and land In your arms, oh how I log to dance again , as I watch those dance before me, I remember flying in the air and dancing with passion, oh I want to dance again.

Oh give me Jesus!

I search day and night, with question after question, all alone with no one to answer me, I search day and night, with ways of truth, all alone with no one to help me, I search day and night, as the stars are so bright I find some hope, hope in the cross, of healing and truth,

Oh give me Jesus,
Let me touch him
Let him heal me,
And all I want to do is dance in his never ending love,
I search day and night, with question after question all alone with no one to answer me, I search day and night with ways of truth, all alone, with no one to help me, I search day and night and he lifts me up and I rediscover his love all over again,
Oh give me Jesus,
Let me touch him
Let him heal me

And all I want to do is dance in his never ending love!

Monday, 19 September 2016

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is often spoken and how we should forgive because it is healthy for us, it sets us free and helps us move forward. Recently I had to take a ride and do something odd, that I found online I could do, I got a glass bottle and some paper and wrote about who hurt me, what they did to hurt me, I just vented it all out, I then simply said I forgave them, saying those words are so painful because they caused such pain to me, I placed it in a bottle and then I went to a far place with the sea and loads of rocks and what I did was smash the bottle in to the rocks and it went right in to the sea.
It was my letting going, I couldn’t change anything, what happen happen, people hurt us but we need to find some way of letting it go no matter how anger we are, I had to start looking at how I could forgive myself because honestly I hated myself even more, it only made me bitter and I needed to let that go.
How can we forgive?
We need to Identify our Hurt.
  • Describe the event.
  • Write briefly how you felt and reacted to the event in the days following it.
  • Write briefly about things related to the event that have happened since it occurred that have affected your current feelings and motivations.
How we deal with this hurt will have an impact not only on us but on the people around us. The types of forgiveness   forgiveness is tied to making a decision to forgive those who harm us. That decision binds us to treat the person who hurt us as a person of value rather than acting negatively toward the person. However,  experiencing emotional forgiveness might take longer than deciding to forgive. A person might sincerely decide to forgive-holding perfectly to his or her resolve not to harm the offender-but at the same time might not fully experience emotional forgiveness. It is believed that decisional and emotional forgiveness, while sometimes occurring together, are two different processes that can occur at different times. In fact, some people can experience one and never experience the other.
I recently  learnt a new way to forgive and would like to share this with you, Its called (REACH)
·         Although making a decision to forgive is necessary, it is not sufficient to really change. You need to REACH forgiveness to change. The REACH forgiveness  has 5 steps:
R
Recall the hurt through imagination
E
Empathize with, sympathize with, feel compassion for, and/or love the one who hurt you
A
Give an altruistic gift of forgiveness
C
Commit to the forgiveness you experienced
H
Hold on to forgiveness when you doubt


Why should we forgive? As I said it is such a very important act to do not only for our health but for the people who are around us. Forgiving doesn’t mean what the other person did was right but it sets us free from being a prison. 

Thursday, 15 September 2016

My pain

My pain, I don’t even know how to write about it, I just stare at the mirror and ask myself what happen to me? Who am I, am I pillar of lies based on religion? Or am I pillar of liars of a labels given me at birth? Just who am I really? I look at the people I once call family, I called them green, I called them hope, they gave me something to believe in, something to hold on to, and now I have nothing to hold on to, but their lies of rejections and the pain they have caused me,… I don’t even know how to write about it, its like the wind, from the south to the east, nothing makes sense not even the man who gave me some light only to throw me with darkness, not even my friend who showed me what a sister is like, only to throw me with betrayal, nothing makes sense, and that’s sad…. My pain I don’t even know how to write about it, I just stare at the mirror and watch me fall apart, reaching out for help and there is no one at all, so I walk with something in my hands killing me day by day, like the weapons of lies given to me at birth making no sense, could I just save myself, could I be the hero of me, or maybe just maybe…..there a hero out there ready….to grab my pain that I don’t even know how to write about….

Tuesday, 23 August 2016

say like it is dear ( You know what i think about different people)

You know what I think about different people? Well I am one of them, as the snail taking things slow so do I, but really what do I know about going fast, only the force of therapist trying to increase my journey but really they are full….full of blind…tissues, but really can I use one for my tears? I walk everywhere and everywhere people shout freak but really, its like being on mars full of no air to breath, as if times im dead but honestly I am dead, tick tock you know what I think about different  people, they are so to be treated differently with love but hey blind people have no idea how their actions can effect someone recovery but really….say like it is…dear

Say like it is dear... (what is love really)

You know what I think about walls that people carry around? They create them slide by slide and pick each side so very well, as if they knew long ago how it was going be build, you know what I think about people with their degrees who try to read you like a book only to fail you and throw away for 3 months if not longer but hey what do I know? People see me walking and stare at me and shout freak! You know what I think about people giving up on something with no passion for their work, its full of cardboard boxes really….boxes build with walls with no personal hope really… you know what I think about love? Love flowing to what so ever, I mean really love is like a tree, it first needs to be plated, then to be water then the roots need to grow and then ….it need to grow… but really what is love, you know what I think about walls that people carry around? There no love in them at all….say like it is….Dear...

say like it is dear

You know what I think? I think we live on a flat earth and the world lies to us about it being round, but hey what do I know about the world? Honest what do I know besides some clouds covering my thoughts, the people that walk pass me they stare and shout freak! But hey what do I know….with a little bit of fire in the air I think that we focus our minds on the wrong things, but really, we hardly focus on the truth? And what is the truth? A man hitting a woman and telling her to say nothing and getting away with it? Or what about a friend who lies about you behide your back? Oh boy we live in a world that is full of lies and oh boy do I hate lies….but then again you know what I think? I think we live on a flat earth and the world lies to us about us being round but hey what do I know about the world…then say like it is dear…